Okay, so, some things to get out of my mind...
Firstly, today's Sunday...
I've noticed a focus on integrity today in my lessons at church. It was good for me- refreshing; edifying; etc. One of those days when pretty much everything you hear seems to be directed directly at you (thank you God).
watched a movie that maybe i shouldn't have watched-- esp. on sunday
and yet it's making me think
because it's one of those that would be a pretty good ice cream... if it weren't for all the bugs in it.
i went on a walk with three of my bestest friends-- so fun.
almost... well, we won't go there, but someone did honk at me.... yikes.
I had a dream in which a Fish was telling me about 1 Peter chapter 1. So I read it. There's some good stuff there. Among other things, I learned that obedience (to our Heavenly Father) increases our ability to love. Awesome. I love the scriptures. And dreams. And dreamy guest stars...
So, there are things about people I'm wondering and would like to get straightened out in my mind... but I'm remembering the Guidance-- take it easy about those things for another month; focus on what really needs to be focused on right now, and then figure out those other things. Prepare yourself in the meantime.
And so, the questions, I will think about a bit, make my peace with for now, and work out the answers when the time is right.
Sounds like a plan, Stan. (Who is this "Stan" anyway?)
Okay, time to do bedtime (and pre-bedtime) stuff.... like dishes.
Tomorrow's a doctor's appointment. I want to swear off triptans.... we'll see what the doctor says.
It's time to say my prayers and go to sleep.
TTFN. :)

sitting waiting wishing

I knew he had to go somewhere.
I usually am good at respecting that. So why was I having such trouble with it this time?
I even called him after he left to tell him about it.
"If I were a jerky person, I'd ask you not to go, but to come back here."
I'm not a jerky person. At least, I don't think so. I try very hard not to be.
So why, did I have this push in not just my brain, but my chest as well, to be a "jerky person".
Maybe it's because a thought pushed itself into my brain earlier today, and he (without knowing it) brought it up.
Maybe it's just because I'm selfish and miss him and want him around.
Maybe it's because Heavenly Father planted it there for his or my benefit.
Why did I want to kiss him?
Why did he (sideways) mention kissing me? (Was it me he was talking about?)
Why did it feel intensely right to call him?
Or even to ask him?
Why did it feel a bit better after I talked to him?
Why did he have good advice?
Why do I still feel like something's going to happen?
Will it?
My brain says no. That's silly. Forget it.
My gut whispers yes. Just wait.
I guess I'll wait.